It's a...

We had our 20 week ultrasound last week. The baby looks to be happy and healthy. Which is wonderful news... and reassuring to this worry wart.

According to the technicien the baby is a girl. I can hardly believe it. I was really feeling the 'boy vibe'. I had been secretly (or not so secretly to some) hoping we would be blessed with a little girl. A little someone to sew dresses and skirts for and to dress in pink and purple and yellow and red. I feel very, very blessed to be given the opportunity to mother both a boy and girl. I imagine the experience is similar but somewhat different... or maybe it is totally different (I'll soon find out). What will be the same is the intense love and joy I'm sure.

Only 4 and a half months to go. It seems like a long way away. I can't wait to see her face and hold her in my arms. Introduce her to her big brother. Experience what it feels like to be a family of four. The idea is both scary and thrilling.

65 Roses

What an amazing project and a great cause:
http://ahappynest.typepad.com/a-happy-nest/2010/03/the-65-roses-project.html

Can't wait to get myself one and support this great cause.

Tutorial

I love this: http://www.saltwater-kids.com/2010/02/tie-shirt-tutorial-and-giveaway.html

I'm going to make Ian one (or two). I haven't really taken the sewing machine out since I got pregnant (not enough energy)... but I'll definitely take on this project for his birthday!

Flutters

In the last few weeks I have been anxiously anticipating the feeling of movement. Little flutters and tickles to reassure me that things are ok in there.

Two days ago I received my first postcard from within. Since then I periodically get little tickles and flutters throughout the day.

Only 16 weeks until my ultrasound. So excited!

Hibernation

Things have been quiet at our house this last little while. It is February in Ottawa with bone chilling, grey days. We have been hibernating. When I get home from work I put my pj's on and most nights I am in bed by 8:00.

We are headed to Florida in two weeks for a week long vacation. Looking forward to feeling the sun on my face and playing in the ocean (I LOVE the ocean). Ian is old enough now to have a lot of fun at the beach so I'm very excited. It should be interesting to see him on the plane. The thought of which both excites and scares him (and mommy is a teeny bit curious to see what an almost three year old will be like for a three hour plane ride!). I've never been to Florida so that will be fun too.  I love travelling. Exploring a new city in a different country is exactly what we need to chase away the winter blues.

16 weeks on Monday. On March 3rd we have our 20 week ultrasound... we are definitely going to find out the gender, so I'm counting down the weeks just like I do for Christmas!

Happy

This weekend Derek asked Ian: 'What are you going to be when you grow up Ian? Are you going to be a builder?' (we were playing with building blocks).

Ian said (without hesitation): 'I'm going to be happy'.

My son amazes me everyday.

There you are!

Yesterday we had our long awaited 12 week ultrasound. We got to see with our very own eyes that little 5 cm being that has been making me so tired and making my belly grow. Both Derek and I think it's another boy. We just have that 'boy feeling' (and would be happy if we were either right or wrong). A girl would be fun because it would be different from what we know and a boy would be fun too since it would mean a little brother for Ian. The baby was kicking and squirming and punching and it was incredible to see. It was the exact proof that I needed to relax a little bit. So now it's time to have some faith and trust that everything will work out fine. I'm starting to believe that that's really true and that feels really good!